Mediumship

Spirit Never Dies

Growing up we used to make jokes with my girlfriends about the word “medium”. We would picture a lady sitting in front of a witch ball or reading tarot cards or fortune telling by looking in a cup of coffee and predicting the future.

Many decades later the word “medium” got different significance and great appreciation for me as I was experiencing the loss of a loved one. You may have heard the expression a book dropped on my feet. Meaning that when we are seeking answers universe is arranging it for us to have the right guidance in the right time. There are a lot of stories where friends or strangers give a book to someone that can change their life.  Something like that happened to me in December 2014.

Back then I was a follower of Gabby Bernstein a spiritual coach and motivational speaker. In one of her videos, she introduced a friend Rebecca Rosen as an energy healer. I decided to watch the video because of its topic. The topic was, how to “Heal Headaches by Clearing your Energy”. I liked Rebecca and I decided to add her book “Awaken the Spirit within” on my Pinterest board of books to read.

That was around the beginning of 2014. End of 2014 on December 18th my dad passed away something that no one in the family was ready for. I was dealing with loss, sorrow, grief, anger and a lot of other heavy feelings. It was few days after the funeral that I was experiencing a severe migraine and low energy. I decided to have a look at my book board on Pinterest in hope to find something positive to keep my mind busy. Then I remembered of Rebecca Rosen and her book how to clear your energy and heal headaches. I downloaded the sample of her book on iBook and start reading the first pages of the book only to realize that I had understood wrong about who she was and her work.

I was now reading the first pages of her book, about how she connects people with their deceased loved ones on the other side. I needed time to digest that. So, I can communicate with my loves ones that have passed and we always stay connected even when we leave our physical body?

That was the beginning of my Spiritual awakening.

I read more books and attended workshops with various respected mediums such as John Holland, James Van Praagh and Maureen Hancock.  A medium is not someone that predicts your future. A medium acts as a mediator, as a connecting bridge between you “a living being” and the “spirit world” bringing you messages from loved ones.

In our days we are so caught up in the body and our material world that we forget we are a spirit incarnated to learn, evolve and grow. When our time in this earthly planet is over, we go back home to our spiritual home. Body dies. Spirit never dies.

As John Holland simply and beautifully explains it: “We are Souls having a Human Experience” and not the other way around, meaning we are Humans having a Spiritual experience. Also, John helped me understand that there is difference between a psychic and a medium. “Psychics perceive information while Mediums receive information”.

I had one of my first psychic experiences on December 9, 1999, but I could not give it an explanation until December 2014. Which is 15 years later. We all have this ability as we are all spiritual beings, and it comes in moments where the mind is not occupied with things of the material nature. You can receive messages from your higher self, guides and deceased loved ones when the mind is still. Like when meditating, sleeping or spending quite time in nature.

For me that experience was in a yoga class during savasana, the final relaxation pose. My yoga journey had started in 1997. I did not know much at the moment which can be good, because you come with an empty cup. Meaning if our brains are loaded with too much information about something, we have certain expectations and we tend to compare our experience with other people’s experience. But everyone is different. I had students coming in my classes telling me that “I read this about yoga and I want to have the same experience.” What I used to kindly advise was: “Let go of Expectations”.

In my yoga trainings I learnt that the meaning of the word “Yoga” is to unite. Correct, to unite but to unite what? It was not until recently that through Bhagavad Gita I learnt it means to: Unite the Individual Self with the Source, the Creator, Spirit, God. Now it does make sense for me but if someone would tell me this 15 years ago it would not. Yoga helps us to connect with our Higher Self which is a droplet of the Absolute Self.

So, during Savasana at the end of a yoga practice where the mind is calm I saw my paternal grandfather who had passed away on December 9th of 1992. Now this was 7 years later the same exact date of his passing December 9th. It was very real and as always, he was very protective and he was telling me to be careful and not to forget who I am in this new land that I had moved. It was so real, that I could feel his presence strongly right after I came out of Savasana and as I was walking home that night I could feel he was walking with me. He was!

Years later I learnt that this is called “visitation”. When a loved one from the other side, visits you during a dream or in this case in Savasana to communicate with you.  So, during a yoga class I was united with a loved one from the spirit realm.

Couple decades later I attended my first Mediumship weekend intensive with James Van Praagh. I entered that room with “No Expectations” and guess what happened? Another Union.

The holistic center I was attending the Mediumship weekend has been the home of my yoga therapy training since 2012. Now this was the first time I was attending something different than yoga. James Van Praagh is one the most well known and respected mediums worldwide for 3 decades. He has been a guest in many popular shows such as Oprah, Dr Phill, Larry King and has also helped developed and produced tv series such as Living with the Dead, Ghost Whisperer and the Dead will Tell. As you can imagine he is a famous medium. That is not the reason I decided to attend his workshop. I was reading one of his books that came free through Hay House and while I was checking the schedule of the center to attend yoga nidra training I saw that he was teaching the same week.

It was not coincidence it was synchronicity I was still reading his book when I found out I could meet him live and study with him in a month. I was planning to sit in the back row as this was something new for me. From the very first moment I entered the room the big room that I have been a yoga student and assistant many times in the past, I felt different.  James is not a distant guru or teacher that he lectures and is not interacting with his audience. He made everyone feel home from the beginning, his whole presence and body language was very warming and welcoming. I felt we are family.

I sat on the second row not the back. He had gained our trust from the very beginning. I was happy, excited and smiling in a workshop that we were about to connect with our deceased loved ones. It was the first day on a Friday night. He had been talking to us for about an hour and a half when he said now get up it is time for our first experiential exercise. We had to wander around the room in any direction we felt a calling and when he would ring the bell we had to stop and make eye contact with the person next to us for couple minutes. Other people were familiar with this for me it was the first time. It was good because I had “No Expectations”.

We had to make eye contact with three people. Just eye contact for I think a minute or two. One minute starring a stranger in the eye can feel uncomfortable. What happened in all three is that after few seconds you could only focus in one of the eyes and the very last seconds, I could see something familiar in their eyes. Someone I knew. With the first person when James said what do you see I could see something familiar but did not know what.

The unexpected happened for me with the second and third person. Things were happening so fast that I did not had time to process what was happening. Meaning, my mind was not interfering. When we were back in our seats James asked if anyone would like to share. No one was raising a hand, but I had to raise mine because what had just happened had blown my mind and wanted to get an answer.

Growing up as a kid I was very close and loved both my grandfathers. I never got to meet my grandmothers as they were both deceased before I was born. I was now in an age that I was seeking connection with them, they were the mothers of my parents. So what happened the very last 3-4 seconds of starring in the eyes of the last two people during that exercise is that they both came through and communicated with me through the eyes of a living being. First it was the mother of my dad whom I am named after and then the mother of my mother. The first one my paternal grandmother communicated loving messages with me and reassurance that she has always been around. My maternal grandmother communicated deeper messages and the last second of the exercise the eye of the person that I was sharing the exercise with start tearing, as what the message was delivering it was very emotional for both of us. In few words here but thousands of feelings inside me, she was telling that it has been hard to watch me from far away and how she wanted to be close to me especially when I was growing up. I am the first-born daughter of her first-born daughter. It did make so much sense I never thought about it.

I did not share all these at the workshop, I just said that I saw my grandmothers that I never met in the eyes of these two ladies and I was losing my mind. James and some other attendants kindly smiled because they knew this was true and not creations of my mind.

The loss of my dad was the reason for me to start exploring the Spirit World. Sometimes loss comes with gifts. I have learnt so much about the journey and the destiny of the soul and I know I have just scratched the surface. This had brought more meaning in my life and happiness, knowing that we never die and we never separate with loved ones.